It’s New Years Eve.
Are you heading into town, to one of the many events happening tonight? going to a party? staying home and watching the fireworks on telly?
We’re heading to a small gathering at my sister-in-law’s place. Nothing too fancy, a few friends, lots of kids running around playing backyard cricket, some food and of course, some drinks. Sounds just about perfect to me.
Of course, at some point in the evening, talk will turn to New Years resolutions.
Making them, keeping them, whether it’s a waste of time or not.
Personally, I love them. It feels like a fresh-start, like at midnight someone hits the re-set button and we get to start the new year with a clean slate and a chance to do things the way we’d like to. There’s no reason we can’t do this on any particular day of the year, but the new year makes it feel more…I don’t know, official or something.
Last year I tried something a little bit different, instead of making resolutions about things, I set myself a word to live by for the year. And since 2014 was the year of the Frozen obsession for almost anyone with a daughter under 10, it’s only fitting that my word for the year was Let
It Go. (You can find the original post here.)
So how did I do at Letting Go?
Pretty well I think, I tried to use my word in all areas of my life, whenever I wasn’t sure about something, I asked myself “is there something stopping me from doing this, or making this decision, what do I need to Let Go of to do this?”
I Let Go of my fear of flying and booked hubby and I a trip to Tassie last winter.
I Let Go of my self-consciousness about my awkwardness/un-coordination and joined a yoga class, which I absolutely adore and wish I’d done it years ago!
I Let Go of my anxiety about “not being a real blogger” and attended two “blogger” type events and met some really lovely ladies and really feel like I do “fit-in” and now am totally owning the “blogger” title and loving it.
I Let Go of some expectations (I’m still working on this one) I’m a hopeless perfectionist, and if I can’t do something “right” then I often give up and don’t want to do it at all. I’m learning to Let Go of that and be kinder to myself, allowing myself to learn and play and make mistakes. I feel like everyone else judges me by the same impossibly high standards that I hold myself to, which is all in my head I’m sure, by Letting Go of that, I am enjoying social events so much more and Letting Go of that fear of what other people are thinking (or not thinking) of me has led me to some beautiful new friendships.
I Let Go of my fear of asking for help. (this kind of ties in with the one above, fear of failure/being judged means I have always put on a smile and pretended that “everything’s fine”) This year I have made huge steps toward being able to Let Go of that, and been able to be honest and tell people when I’m having a really shitty day or not coping. In doing that, I’ve now got a much better support network of people I can talk to, and have put me in touch with some professional services that have been an absolute blessing. (an art-therapy group, an on-call mental health nurse to chat to) and a mother’s group of absolutely wonderful mummies, who are all dealing with different issues, but we can all talk totally open and honestly about our issues. These ladies have been an absolute god-sent and I can see some wonderful friendships growing from this group.
So I’m ending this year feeling really blessed and grateful. It’s certainly had it’s ups and downs and bumpy bits, but I feel I’m ending the year feeling stronger and wiser that I started it, and excited to see what 2015 has in store.
I hope all my lovely readers have a wonderful, happy and safe new years eve, however you spend it, and I want to thank each and every one of you for sticking with me this year, even after 2 years blogging it astounds me sometimes that I write this stuff because writing it keeps me sane and you guys actually read it, you totally rock! Yes you, you do!
Thanks again beautiful people and look forward to seeing you here next year, I have big plans for my little blog in 2015… stay tuned